Amanda Deprez

Artist / provocateur.

digitalloveslice:

You are my solace at the end of the day.
My place to hide from the cycles pain.

Dress my wounds.
Feel inside my womb.

Make sure I am still woman.

theladymisskier: An old friend ,who was a physics major at the time ,showed me how to make a rainbow . I took notes , so on grey days I can make one at home.My rainbows are tiny and not nearly as impressive as Peter Erskine’s Spectrum of Time. Whatever he’s done here- i love it-lady Miss kier…www.ladykier.com

theladymisskier:

An old friend ,who was a physics major at the time ,showed me how to make a rainbow . I took notes , so on grey days I can make one at home.My rainbows are tiny and not nearly as impressive as Peter Erskine’s Spectrum of Time. Whatever he’s done here- i love it-lady Miss kier…www.ladykier.com

(Source: pulmonaire, via ellarearranged)

ryanhatesthis: Hi, I’m Lasagna Del Ray and I’m the worst thing you’ve ever seen.

ryanhatesthis:

Hi, I’m Lasagna Del Ray and I’m the worst thing you’ve ever seen.

(via vicemag)

vicemag: Cat Marnell’s Amphetamine Logic: Goodbye to All That (the End for Now) Amphetamine Logic was kind of making me psychotic. I sat down for lunch with my agent at an overpriced bistro on Park Avenue South. “So Cat,” Byrd Leavell, literary agent extraordinaire, said. “What’s new?” “Well,” I said, surreptitiously picking a peroxide scab off my head. “I guess I’ve finally burned out like everyone wants me to.” I was eating on a steak and trying not to gag while I chewed. “Hmm,” said my agent. “Well, what are we going to do—” “I don’t know, man,” I gulped, and my hands started shaking. “Let me just try to explain the situation. I have no money and everyday eat empanadas from the corner that I pay for in laundry quarters. My apartment looks like a fucking personality disorder. You can barely open the door—” “Uh huh,” said Byrd. “—I mean there are perfume bottle shards in my feet and there’s blood and oatmeal on the floor—” “Cat,” Byrd said. “You can’t live like this anymore.” ***** But couldn’t I? On the way home I thought about all of the things instead of writing that I’d been doing. I was Rolling Stone’s ”Hot Bukowski.” I was the toast of the town. I was puking flowers afterhours; I was letting everybody down. I read a Tatler article: “London’s Seven Loveliest Lesbians.” I mocked a skeleton dressed as Kenny Scharf at Gold Bar. There was ethanol, Adderall, night rainbows, Nalaxone. I sat around stoned in Soho House while the concierge charged my iPhone. I stuffed Artforum in my oven and stacked Richardson on the stove. I saw Pointbreak at MOMA; I saw 3 PM Hunger Games in LA at the Grove: “(PG-13) for intense violent thematic material and disturbing images—all involving teens.” I bleached everything I owned and my knuckles burned and scabbed from the bleach. I snorted dope in DUMBO and I smoked dust on the beach. I preyed on editors during the day and slept with monsters at night. Life’s never dowdy in an Audi scoring pudé up in Washington Heights, is it babes? I drank Diet Coke and had coke sex and sat in Yorkville townhouse basements playing Mario Kart on a grimy old Super Nintendo. We smoked crack until our fingers turned black and watched Mel Gibson’s Apocalypto. I chilled with famous downtown stupor freaks tweaking and listening to Diplo. “WHY IS EVERYBODY DRESSED LIKE MR. PEANUT?!” I screamed once at Le Baron. I had about 40 pounds of fake hair on. “Shhh,” Same said. “You are dusted.” And though I was confused of course I trusted him. The Boom Boom Room was always full of doom. Our PCP smelled like burnt balloons. I was dressed Boricua heroin chic. Shaun was asking me if I saw Wu Tang at Milk Studios that one weird Fashion Week. “Wu Tsang?” “Wu Tang!” “WU TSANG?!” “Cat.” Shaun said. “Oh Jesus God, does it fucking matter?” I screamed. “Is this a ‘Big Picture’ problem?” The bathroom line disasters are as disastrous as disasters can be. “Shaun, the little coke girls are STARING AT ME.” “They are staring at us because we know them,” Shaun said. “You’ve had them over to your house to do drugs at least four times. Invite them over. They’re the little LES… dominatrixes. They have tons of tons of drugs and money and they’re nice.” “OK,” I said, and I walked over and did. ***** Continue

vicemag:

Cat Marnell’s Amphetamine Logic: Goodbye to All That (the End for Now)

Amphetamine Logic was kind of making me psychotic.

I sat down for lunch with my agent at an overpriced bistro on Park Avenue South.

“So Cat,” Byrd Leavell, literary agent extraordinaire, said. “What’s new?”

“Well,” I said, surreptitiously picking a peroxide scab off my head. “I guess I’ve finally burned out like everyone wants me to.” I was eating on a steak and trying not to gag while I chewed.

“Hmm,” said my agent. “Well, what are we going to do—”

“I don’t know, man,” I gulped, and my hands started shaking. “Let me just try to explain the situation. I have no money and everyday eat empanadas from the corner that I pay for in laundry quarters. My apartment looks like a fucking personality disorder. You can barely open the door—”

“Uh huh,” said Byrd.

“—I mean there are perfume bottle shards in my feet and there’s blood and oatmeal on the floor—”

“Cat,” Byrd said. “You can’t live like this anymore.”

*****

But couldn’t I? On the way home I thought about all of the things instead of writing that I’d been doing.

I was Rolling Stone’s ”Hot Bukowski.” I was the toast of the town. I was puking flowers afterhours; I was letting everybody down. I read a Tatler article: “London’s Seven Loveliest Lesbians.” I mocked a skeleton dressed as Kenny Scharf at Gold Bar. There was ethanol, Adderall, night rainbows, Nalaxone. I sat around stoned in Soho House while the concierge charged my iPhone. I stuffed Artforum in my oven and stacked Richardson on the stove. I saw Pointbreak at MOMA; I saw 3 PM Hunger Games in LA at the Grove: “(PG-13) for intense violent thematic material and disturbing images—all involving teens.” I bleached everything I owned and my knuckles burned and scabbed from the bleach.

I snorted dope in DUMBO and I smoked dust on the beach. I preyed on editors during the day and slept with monsters at night. Life’s never dowdy in an Audi scoring pudé up in Washington Heights, is it babes? I drank Diet Coke and had coke sex and sat in Yorkville townhouse basements playing Mario Kart on a grimy old Super Nintendo. We smoked crack until our fingers turned black and watched Mel Gibson’s Apocalypto. I chilled with famous downtown stupor freaks tweaking and listening to Diplo.

“WHY IS EVERYBODY DRESSED LIKE MR. PEANUT?!” I screamed once at Le Baron. I had about 40 pounds of fake hair on.

“Shhh,” Same said. “You are dusted.” And though I was confused of course I trusted him.

The Boom Boom Room was always full of doom. Our PCP smelled like burnt balloons. I was dressed Boricua heroin chic. Shaun was asking me if I saw Wu Tang at Milk Studios that one weird Fashion Week.

“Wu Tsang?”

“Wu Tang!”

“WU TSANG?!”

“Cat.” Shaun said.

“Oh Jesus God, does it fucking matter?” I screamed. “Is this a ‘Big Picture’ problem?” The bathroom line disasters are as disastrous as disasters can be. “Shaun, the little coke girls are STARING AT ME.”

“They are staring at us because we know them,” Shaun said. “You’ve had them over to your house to do drugs at least four times. Invite them over. They’re the little LES… dominatrixes. They have tons of tons of drugs and money and they’re nice.”

“OK,” I said, and I walked over and did.

*****

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